Letting go… and letting God

Today I watched this girl let go of everything she knew and give her future to God. I am still in awe when I think of her and what she has done. We stood there in the registrar’s office.

“Music teaching practicum? Drop.”
“Sight singing? Drop.”
Drop. Drop. Drop. Drop.

Everytime she said that word, I could feel her heart falling. Blood pressure rising. Honestly, I was feeling the same way. This is such a big change. It’s so funny. Just when you think you have your whole life planned out for yourself, God goes and proves to you that he’s in charge. It’s right, though. He’s opened so many doors for this wonderful person. I can’t imagine giving God that much control in my life. I’m working to that point, but I am so scared to let go of the control. She is truly an inspiration to me.

Thinking back to last year, I would never have guessed that I would be learning so much about faith, patience, and God’s goodness from this girl. She has changed so much within the last year. It’s just incredible. I find myself going to her more and more for advice and guidance. Who would have thought? Definitely not either of us.

Do you ever feel stuck in a rut? Like no matter how hard you try to remedy the situation(s) at hand, there just seems to be no way out? I was talking to a friend today about relationships and ideals that have been challenged as a result. Whenever I think of the most wonderful, inspiring Christians I know, and I think about their life stories and how they got to where they are today, it seems like rock bottom is the only place you can go before finally seeing the light. I don’t want to hit that rock bottom.

“I think God is putting you in these situations because He wants you to choose Him.”

Ahhh. When she said this to me I thought: at least there is some method to this perceived madness. I know why I am feeling the way I am. I know what needs to be done to remedy the situation. The only problem is, I can never seem to bring myself to do what I need to do until the weight is so heavy I can’t bear to carry it anymore. Only this time, that won’t be happening. I have a habit of avoiding sticky situations. If the outcome is less than ideal in my mind, then I tend to react the way I want. All I can see is how my decisions affect me in the immediate future, and that never seems to look good. Well, God’s view of my future stretches far beyond what I can see right now. If I would just follow the example He is placing in front of me, so obviously I might add, I would definitely be happier right now.

This song has just been on my heart recently. I hope it touches you the way it has been touching me.